Update 1/16/10

As I move along the road called life... it gets harder and harder every damn minute... after a joyous event yesterday trials started pouring in every hour... and its just 4 pm... and its seems that I still have a long way to go to call it a day.

I woke up to the sound of distress... I thought I hear someone calling but once I listened hard enough I realized I am hearing my own voice shouting... shouting out loud ... asking for help. It startled me... and I begun to wonder... what was that... is that what they call desperation? nah just blabbing about things my fragile mind can't bare.  

I keep on saying... "Don't break... please don't break" and my mind says " BRING IT ON"