January month end

The first month of the year 2010… It was a hopeful month, a very promising one was about to end…

 

As of today, my life has been pretty much the same… playing housewife, parent and guardian to my family.  A lovely way to start my year but I am still longing for more.

 

To be honest, this is what I dreamed of… a simple life. For years everybody heard me complaining about everyday complications and stress, now that I have decided to eliminate it… I somehow miss it. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t crave for the craziness I don’t think I’m quite ready for that, I just want a little stress to balance everything out. Hearing me say it makes me laugh but yes I person can change minds right?

 

30 days ago, I said to myself I wanted to work again… but I said a couple of weeks more. 2 weeks have past and I said a few more days… a few days gone by… I uttered “tomorrow” but every day tomorrow comes… I was busy, busy with things to do.

 

Am I procrastinating… yes, a little maybe… but who won’t? I dreamed of this did I? And now its February and I can’t delay it any longer… I just can’t.