who's counting anyway?

12:00 am September 8... The streets are empty... only the lamp posts to illuminate the dark corners of the world... I am still awake. Thinking what to do next...

Everyday, I bump into something new... new trials... new friends... new things to ponder on... but after 27 yrs I finally had the courage to settle down. Live life in a slow pace...live every second of it and truly enjoy every moment life brings me.

As each day of my life pass, I became closer to God...closer to what’s really right...closer to my family... and closer to the one who truly cares.

I never celebrate birthdays, I stopped celebrating when I was 12 or 15...I couldn’t care less anymore. I remember my classmates used to bring food inside the classroom to celebrate their special day... me, I choose to be absent and sleep all day. As the years pass by, I grew accustomed to this habit... I always say to my self... when I was born; I was born alone... so why do I need to celebrate it with someone...If in the end I’m going to die alone. Cynical right... yeah I thought so too. but old habits are hard to break it became a cycle to me... on this time of the year I either go on trips with friends and force them not to mention anything about bdays or spend the whole day alone at home with my family.

After 27 yrs... I realized, I shouldn’t be celebrating the day I was born, Instead I should celebrate life itself... nothing extravagant nor grand just plain and simple thank you for giving me the chance to experience another year of my life.

At this day, I was born exactly 27 yrs ago...

I am changing... I am a son, a brother, an uncle, a godfather, a friend, a colleague, a companion, a coach, a partner, and most important I am now complete.

I choose to become who I am right now…

I choose to Love the person I wanted to love…

I choose to be where I wanted to be…

I have chosen between choice and chance… and learned that I was and always will be in control of my life.

I lived a thousand chapters of my book… and a few hundred thousand chapters more to write.

I had fun… I had sorrow… I had my equal share of bitterness and I’ve moved on…

I surpassed all my standards… tomorrow new standards to overcome…

I’ve been to places that I only dreamed before… now its time to search for more places to dream about.

I met people who at one point touched my life… now its time to touch somebody else’s life… time to inspire a new breed of hope… a new beginning…

This are a few of my reasons why I celebrate life nowadays…  cause life is to short to go unnoticed… and once it passed you by… it is so hard to relived the past that you already left behind.

Is it too late… was it?

Thank you, for everything… for all the heartaches… I found love. For all the hardships, I became stronger. For every little detail that I missed… My eyes are now clearer. For all the uncontrollable things in the past… now the future seems manageable. For all the lessons I learned the hard way… my experience is worth sharing. For everything… for all the things that I wanted to happen in my life and the unexpected turn-around… THANK YOU… a heartfelt thank you.

Look at me, Look at me
I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
I'm trying to find a way to understand
But I need you, I need you
I need a hand
I am changing
Seeing everything so clear
I am changing
I'm gonna start right now, right here
I'm hoping to work it out
And I know that I can
But I need you, I need a hand

All of my life I've been a fool
Who said I could do it all alone
How many good friends have I already lost?
How many dark nights have I known?

Walking down that wrong road
There was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness
Could make a person blind
But now I can see

I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
But I need a friend
To help me start all over again
That would be just fine
I know it's gonna work out this time
'Cause this time I am
This time I am
I am changing
I'll get my life together now
I am changing
Yes I know how
I'm gonna start again
I'm gonna leave my past behind
I'll change my life
I'll make a vow and nothings gonna stop me now

As we grow older, as we pass each and every test… we learn. Believe it or not I’m walking on air…

I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FEEL SO FREE.

Thank you,  from the bottom of my heart.