Living with pepper

Sorry if I made you sawa with my pepper post but this is the only way I know how to ease the pain... I need to cope up... move on fast... need to pick up the broken pieces of my heart... need to fill in the hole that the death of my son made.

Living with pepper is not really all that bliss... it has its ups and down... my son is still young and as every todler phase it has its terrible two stages... well those stages are the ones that pierce my heart and not the good memories.

I was ready to have a dog when i got pepper... so ready that i already knew what im going to do when he arrives... i was a mother who buys baby stuff na even if the baby is not yet born... I knew all the pros and cons... and i already knew that my dog will not be perfect.

Peppers first week was a disaster... with a bad case of allergic reaction... his almost bald cut... and the elizabeth collar everyday... while he suffered i suffered with him... looking at him uncomfy with the daily meds... looking at him just being accustomed to our abnormal lifestyle... its hard for my baby and also hard for me.

I started introducing him to everyone... my mom is a natural dog lover so mom is easy... my brother naman yeah theyre like me before they love dogs but they are ok with having one basta all responsibility wont fall sa kanila...

Dads a different story... i need to assure him that peppers just a small dog his mom is a toy poodle and dads a maltese so super small dog lang... nothing to worry about...he was worried because my brothers chowchow is getting bigger every week.

Training pepper to sit is easy ive done that with treats... training him to say bye bye... thats through habit... everytime cucci goes to work he leaves pepper with mom, thats moms time to play/take care of pepper... by that time he was fed... he poop and wiwi already so moms time should always be easy... just pure playtime. Then when i arrives the ussual kissing and excited part and we say thank you to lami (thats what we call my mom) pepper will kiss mom and i will move his paw to wave bye bye... until one day he will just do it by comand.

Biting... he was a biter that explains all the toys... he bit mom once but we corrected it and he never bit her again... same with cucci... we crate trained him for his biting everytime he bites we put him inside his crate and we will do the dedma act... we will talk and disregard him until he lays down and stops jumping... after that he stopped biting... but its different for me... i like pepper biting me and i never stopped him i like the feel of his teeth in my palm... thats how our lambingan sessions started he will lick my arms and nibble on my fingers but when he gets my attention and we played na he'll stop biting and play na lang with me.

Feeding him is one hell of a struggle... as in... since he might be allergic to anything... we started experementing a lot with food... well he already tasted all our homecooked food... yeah as in i know its bad but i just let him taste it a small portion lang to get him used to real rice and meat kasi we plan to give him real meat once he turns 6 to 7 months its good daw for growing dogs. We buy canned dog food... the kibbles... the chewables... etc and the treats he likes one type of doggie biscuit and one treat that smells like chocolate daw but with vitamins.

Living with him is entertaining... there were some days that i wanted to put him in his ceate just because i had a bad day at work but i didnt... or during the time he wakes up every 10am just because he is waiting for cucci to open the door... and wakes me up too kasi cucci is here na.

Everyday... the hardest part of the day would be when i leave for the office... when i said ligo lang ako he will jump in my chest and just pretend to sleep so i wont move hahaha what i do... i pretend to be asleep and when i hear his breathing stabilized i will move him... and he will just lift his head and make dabog...

Why is it hard for me to forget pepper... its because i remember not only the good memories but also the bad ones... because for every good memories 80% of that started with a bad one.