Wishing I was... but Thankful I wasn't
For over a year now I lived by my motto... make your decisions right for you.... another way of saying stick with it rather than hoping for the what ifs in life.
I have made a couple of bad turns in my life... the life that started 10 yrs ago... I was 17 back then... Decisions that made me unpopular amongst my relatives... decisions that made me face reality and make me look beyond the facade that we have...
We are not rich, as I always say but we are not poor... I always have this positivity in me that makes me strong... the aura that was often misunderstood by the people I meet and the people that passes by my so called life... We are just average... maybe below average... a disgruntled family heritage to live by... the broken relationships that we have... it was the poor side of me... and now looking back on those years that passed by... I always have this feeling deep inside of me that says... I WISH I WAS... but a strong feeling prominently saying... BE THANKFUL YOUR NOT!!!
Starting of with the question of my character... I learned that a man gets respect when he truly earned it not by portraying someone Else's ... I learned to live and enjoy the road that I have chosen for myself... but at an early age you keep on searching, turning, and battling for a better road to drive on... a generation Y mindset...
The turning points of my life... the decisions... quick or was well thought off... will always be an achievement... Regrets, I have a few... for me its normal... I learned to take regrets the hard way and I know there is no other way to learn it.
Looking back I will never know if I have chosen the right path... and I will never figure it out. but every person has to know if the road you've taken is the right one for you... contradicting? yes possibly... I don't really know if I made the right decisions before but I know that where I am today is where i wanted to be... I'm not saying that I wanted to stop, I wanted to quit, all I'm saying is life holds a lot of possibilities NO RIGHT NO WRONG... But I know I can never go back to where everything has started... I just cant.
I cant go back to that young quick tempered easy going young man... I have out grown that phase... I have matured hopefully it doesn't stops there... lot to learn, lot to do... and delaying the possibilities by looking back - life is to short for delays - will not help me... I know that...
Wishing I was... and thankful I wasn't... Believe and you will truly earn what you rightfully deserve. A FRESH START...
I have made a couple of bad turns in my life... the life that started 10 yrs ago... I was 17 back then... Decisions that made me unpopular amongst my relatives... decisions that made me face reality and make me look beyond the facade that we have...
We are not rich, as I always say but we are not poor... I always have this positivity in me that makes me strong... the aura that was often misunderstood by the people I meet and the people that passes by my so called life... We are just average... maybe below average... a disgruntled family heritage to live by... the broken relationships that we have... it was the poor side of me... and now looking back on those years that passed by... I always have this feeling deep inside of me that says... I WISH I WAS... but a strong feeling prominently saying... BE THANKFUL YOUR NOT!!!
Starting of with the question of my character... I learned that a man gets respect when he truly earned it not by portraying someone Else's ... I learned to live and enjoy the road that I have chosen for myself... but at an early age you keep on searching, turning, and battling for a better road to drive on... a generation Y mindset...
The turning points of my life... the decisions... quick or was well thought off... will always be an achievement... Regrets, I have a few... for me its normal... I learned to take regrets the hard way and I know there is no other way to learn it.
Looking back I will never know if I have chosen the right path... and I will never figure it out. but every person has to know if the road you've taken is the right one for you... contradicting? yes possibly... I don't really know if I made the right decisions before but I know that where I am today is where i wanted to be... I'm not saying that I wanted to stop, I wanted to quit, all I'm saying is life holds a lot of possibilities NO RIGHT NO WRONG... But I know I can never go back to where everything has started... I just cant.
I cant go back to that young quick tempered easy going young man... I have out grown that phase... I have matured hopefully it doesn't stops there... lot to learn, lot to do... and delaying the possibilities by looking back - life is to short for delays - will not help me... I know that...
Wishing I was... and thankful I wasn't... Believe and you will truly earn what you rightfully deserve. A FRESH START...
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